Teresa was berated for 3 hours Tuesday night by associates of hers (her long-time family hairdresser Leslie and Leslie’s friend whom Teresa didn’t know) on how evil, wrong and unfit of a mother she was because of allowing Becca to participate in events at a clothing-optional facility. She was in the middle of getting her hair done so she was trapped and had to sit through it all.
“How dare you? Don’t you know God hates nudists? Becca should be taught to be ashamed of her body, not proud of it. It says so in the bible.” They assaulted her with tales of child-molestation, rape and pedophilia. Saying that just by seeing naked bodies people get turned on and aroused. Going to a nudist resort is just asking to get raped. I’m afraid of these ignorant people. These are the ones we should be watching out for. Sexually repressed and afraid of their own bodies. These are the type of people that shower with clothes on in the dark.
I choose to wear clothes 99% of the time I’m there because I know I’m no prize to look at but I have been known to walk to the showers with nothing but a towel over my shoulder. I am fairly certain that anyone unfortunate to get a glimpse at that was NOT turned on. All joking aside, I have seen some absolutely gorgeous nude people there and I can honestly say that there was no sexual reaction. It’s amazing how I’m mollified with breasts in every-day life but when they’re out there for all to see, it’s not a big deal. It’s not sexual, it’s beautiful. Leslie and her friend have a lot to learn…
Leslie also said that because we let Becca wear high-heels and “act all sexy-like” at 4 years old and now she’s seen naked people, she’ll be pregnant by 13. And just which report are they reading? All the data I can find says just the opposite. Anything I can find and read says that children brought up in a atmosphere like this are more likely to spot “trouble adults” than other kids and are able to avoid dangerous sexual situations. They are also less prone to accidental pregnancy and diseases because they have learned to respect their bodies and themselves. But let’s not confuse this conversation with facts shall we?
The way these people were talking to Teresa, I am actually afraid that DCF will make a visit to the house. Let them. I have all the Florida statutes and precedence ready to go. Becca is in no danger, unless you believe that thinking for yourself and respecting yourself is dangerous.

They really laid it on thick and made all kinds of incorrect assumptions about me and my family. Teresa doesn’t like to argue about these kinds of things so she could only sit there and go, “uh-huh, wow, ok, I’ll have to look into that.” She is a very smart woman, she just doesn’t have the confidence and speed to argue the points as they come up. That and the fact that she’s just beginning to learn about other religions. She just doesn’t have the knowledge base built up enough to rebuff their attacks with facts and figures. Do any of us really?

One of the greatest assumptions they made; they asked Teresa if I believe in or worship Satan. She didn’t answer quick enough so they assumed I did. I don’t. Satan is a Christian concept. I know there is a difference between rebellious youths claiming to worship Satan and true LaVeyan Theorists. Do they know the difference? Do they care that there is a difference? I believe in evil as much as I believe in good. But I don’t believe in their personification of evil any more than I believe in their brand of god.

That was another good one. They said that I wasn’t very smart and that I am only pretending to rebel against God because I only believed in good, not evil. Have these fucking people MET me? I can get about as dark as it gets at times. The tattoos on my back represent that very ideal. Animal and Angel. There can be no good without evil, there can be no evil without good. Dark/light, male/female, up/down. Balance. Where do these people get the assumption that all pagans only believe in good? Hollywood?
I think they’re confusing paganism with Wicca. Wicca is pagan by definition, but not all pagans are Wiccan. Kind of like Baptists are Christian, but not all Christians are Baptist. That being said, Wicca has it’s fair share of “fluffy bunnies” but they’re not ALL like that. Most times you identify any group and use definitives like “all, none, every” you are probably talking out of your butt. Not all the time, but stereotyping can be dangerous. And even if they were ALL like that, how is that a bad thing? A room full of people trying to project nothing but good? Sounds cool to me man…

Oh, that’s another thing. Because I swear a lot, specifically the “F-word”, I am not a real pagan. Where do they come up with this stuff? Yeah, I could/should tone it down a little (ok, a LOT!!!), but how does my decision to include these words in my vocabulary reflect on my spiritual journey? Fucking weirdos.

Just a little side rant here, I’m sick of the “righteous” people claiming that the use of profanity is an indication of a stunted vocabulary. Does that make any sense at all? These people are excluding specific words from their vocabulary while I include them all. Who has the larger capacity for volume here?
If there were only 2000 words and you excluded seven of them, wouldn’t your usage be reduced to 1993 words while I’m still up at 2000? Simple math here folks. Sure, I could go around saying “This is inversely proportional to the wind” but people tend to understand me better when I just say “This sucks”.
OK, back to our regularly scheduled rant…

I really wish I was there because they asked another question that they never got around to explaining to her but I’d LOVE to hear the explanation on this one. They asked her if I had and Indian blood in me. WTF? How does that fit in there? Are these people really trying to say that all people with Native American blood are prone to paganism and therefore going to hell? I’ll tell you, from what I can find in my lineage, I don’t think I have any Native American in me. That is unfortunate because I have nothing but respect and at times awe for their traditions and paths. I only wish I did have a claim to that rich heritage. But, they never did explain why they asked that question so here I am making assumptions about them too.

Leslie’s friend who claims to be a doctor of theology, kept calling me a “half-assed pagan” because I was only rebelling against God and not really thinking for myself. Their major concern was that Teresa was doomed to hell too because she’ll follow me. Hey, Teresa may seem meek and mild but trust me, that woman thinks for herself. I can’t force her to think one way or another any more than she could force me. We agree in most things but when we don’t, it’s usually a compromise in her favor, not mine. I did not marry a mindless automaton that does as I say. However, when we were married in a Christian church by a Christian preacher, he did try to say that the wife obeys the man and bows to all his wishes. Ohhhh man, that’s another story for another time…. Remind me and I’ll tell you later.
So which path is he thinking of when he says Teresa will follow me into hell? Paganism, that generally empowers the woman and elevates her to a goddess and in some cases, holds her higher than the male? Or Christianity, that generally tends to tell women to submit to the man?

Why do these people always pick these conversations when I’m not around? Like some other people in our lives, they see Teresa as weak. They mistake her quietness for weakness. They think because she’ll hold it inside and not spit it back into their faces that she is weak and therefore an easy target. She’s going through all this with another person in her life too. Someone who will attack her because they are upset with me. Why not attack me? Because she thinks she wins when she attacks Teresa. I actually think Teresa has more strength that I do. It takes strength and will to absorb all this crap. I just re-load and fire back. Sometimes I wish I were more like Teresa in that I should keep quiet more often than when I’m running my mouth.
I think I need to go in for a haircut. Hopefully, her friend will be there too. Ahh, why do I look for trouble…

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