Becca is in DC, having a blast though she had an accident in the tub last night falling out and busting her elbow. Luckily it’s just bruised and not broken though she cried and cried on the phone with me last night and I couldn’t give her a big hug or kiss her boo boo away!! A little Advil and ice and she’s good to go today. She’s in a hotel room with three of her good friends and from the noise they seem to be getting along perfectly. Crazy girls – I just hope they remember to use their common sense. This trip is a school trip and they went through a ton of paperwork, confirming with all the teachers that they could go – signatures from each teacher etc. And even with all of that.. I get a phone call at 6pm last night informing me my daughter was not in school. Huh… They call me when she’s on a school approved trip but they can’t call me when she’s actually home sick. Doesn’t make sense does it??
I’ve been fighting a cold for 4 weeks now and it’s killing me. I’m already burning myself out with all the crap I have to do, can I at least get a break with this stupid cold. I get rid of it, and then two days later, I’m lying in bed hacking and coughing again. SUCKS! If I can make it the next five months, all will be well… But I honestly don’t think I can make it. I hate to be a quitter, but with the stress of the business, Becca’s school, Girl Scouts and home life, I think I’ll be in a padded cell or divorced before 5 months come and go.
I have no patience for anything lately. Especially with Chris and Becca. I’m cranky and irritated with just the slightest issue. They seem to need my attention more and more daily and with everything going on.. I just don’t have the attention to give. I just snap! I know.. I know.. THEY are the important ones, they are the ones that deserve all my attention but I’m at my wits end! What can I do? It was so much easier when I didn’t have a job, didn’t have so many Girl Scout responsibilities. I’m so tired, beyond exhausted, I just want to fall into bed and sleep for a week. But I can’t because there is cleaning to do, children to watch, meals to fix and activities to plan and Girl Scout field trips to go on…and don’t forget cookie sales/booths!!. Heck, I don’t even have time to brush my own darn hair! I just throw it in a bun and I’m done. To add love and affection, a little compassion or comfort – HA! Who has time for it? I’m all worn out!! UGH! Five more months and I’m getting rid of a ton of responsibilities. I’m so tempted to tell them it’s effective immediately..but then, I’d be a quitter. What should I do? Can my family hold on five more months or will we be at the point of hating and resenting each other by then? Chris says I’m not happy anymore, haven’t been happy in a long long time. I guess that’s kind of true. How can I fix it?
I love my job. I got a few more kids and I’m at the point of having to send people away! It’s awesome. I love having all the kids around, having all the noise and chaos. Right now I have my usual 6 month old, 2 year old and 4 year old. Two days a week I’ll add a 3 year old and a 6 week old..and I may be getting my final charge – 5 month old. I’m filled to capacity and having a wonderful time! This is definitely my dream job. I’m loving it!
February and March are filled with Girl Scout events – cookie sales, cookie booths, community service and field trips.. Before we lose the rest of our faithful friends… we want to find a minute or two to visit everyone. I’m working on it! I swear! And even though we have to decline more than we can accept invitations, we really appreciate all the invites and hope you all will be patient and not forget us!! We’ll be out of this black hole soon… 5 months and counting! We’re in need of a poker game soon!!!!
We have one week to go to see if Becca makes it in the IB program at Stanton or Paxon. Fingers crossed. Becca says if she doesn’t make it, she’s packing up and moving to PA. If she can’t go to her dream school, then she’s going to go with her 2nd choice and be with Liz. And the funny thing is… Liz is planning on applying to Flagler College so that she can be down here with Becca in 3 years. Think they miss each other?
Five months to go… think I can make it????
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