It’s My turn

Can’t breathe… can’t breathe..

Run! Run! Escape! Gotta get away, gotta get out of here!

Can’t handle anymore, can’t take anymore!

Going to explode!!

HELP!!

Okay, so a little dramatic I guess but.. Geesh! Can someone give me a freaking break here? My schedule is getting a little out of control with the end of the school year looming. But, that’s a good thing; that means I’m almost done! Can I make it? I don’t know.

This past weekend Becca asked me what’s wrong and all I could say was, “I’m tired, just tired.” I told her I didn’t think I could make it until June. Everything was getting to me and I was going to explode if things didn’t ease. Becca’s response? “Mom, I don’t think you’re going to make it until tomorrow.” I just wanted to cry. We were heading to another cookie booth, after I got phone calls all morning and emails all morning about issues I needed to solve. It was a freaking weekend and I didn’t have 10 seconds to stand in a corner and hide my head UGH! At least this is the last week of cookie sales.. that will cut down on a lot of the stress.

The day care is going well. I’m having some issues but if I start typing about that… I’ll never stop typing.. I’m sure I’ll work them out soon -if I can just get a back bone. I love my little monsters, they are just awesome.

Becca is doing great in school. We’ve got a couple of classes to keep an eye on this semester but, otherwise, we’re drama free on the school front.

Home? Well, it’s an absolute disaster area, I’m thinking I’ll need to call HAZMAT soon. Spring cleaning? HA! I need to combine Fall and Winter with my Spring – I never got around to doing those cleanings.

Girl Scouts – well lets see. I had my Team meeting on Monday and as usual out of the 12 people on the team, only 3 of us showed. I miss one meeting and get a written slap via email (through out the entire SUM) they miss meetings and it’s just a big sigh and “what can you do?” UGH. They tried to quilt me into staying on as Coach – we have no one in our cluster that is experienced enough to take my spot. Sorry guys, can’t do it. THEN they had the nerve to ask me if I’d be willing to help CO-chair recruitment next year – what’s the job? Calling the schools, scheduling a spot at Open House, calling the leaders and setting them up as recruiters. UH, HELL NO! I just smiled and shook my head no. I’m NOT doing that.. AND they’ll be really shocked when they find out I won’t be one of the leaders that signs up for a booth. I’m so over it. After my Daisy meeting Tuesday and my Cadette meeting last night, I’m even SERIOUSLY thinking of quitting it all. The parents in my daisy’s and the girls & parents in my Cadette – NO RESPECT for me or my co-leader and I’m SO freaking over it.

I’m hosting a Daisy sleep over this weekend. Ten little girls will come over Friday until Saturday afternoon, 3 of my Cadettes have planned out activities to entertain the girls. It should be a blast. EXCEPT, we’ve got a dark cloud over the event because Tuesday night I found out one of the mom’s had the nerve to talk with my co-leader about her “concern” over my husband being in a house full of little girls. WHAT?? She told my co-leader she didn’t feel comfortable leaving her daughter in a house with a…. MAN!  She’s never even met Chris. I don’t even think she’s even SEEN HIM!! I’m waiting for her to confront me.. I’m going to blast her.. but my response to my co-leader when she told me this??? I looked her straight in the eye and said… “Don’t worry.. he was acquitted on all charges.” She about peed herself cracking up. See? I’ve still got it – sometimes! The nerve of this woman. If she has issues, she needs to bring it up to me, NOT talk to other people about me and my family. And the weird thing is, this woman is married. Why would she say such a thing? Unless, her husband is a creeper so she thinks they all are??? I’m thoroughly offended. It was kinda cool that one of my favorite Cadettes overheard the conversation and was just as offended. She defended Chris…it made my heart melt. SO SWEET! She’s my alter ego and has NO PROBLEM telling these women off.

The Cadette troop – GRRR I’m so fed up with their lack of responsibility and disrespect. My cookie mom has already said she wasn’t returning next year and honestly, I told her I wasn’t either. The girls are crazy this year and their parents UGH, Just want to line them up and smack them. What do they think Michelle and I do all day? Sit around eating bon bons? NO! We work our butts off organizing events, activities and trips. All we ask is paperwork be turned in on time, homework be completed on time and meetings run smooth. HA! Michelle went ballistic last night when ½ the girls forgot their work AGAIN. She screamed and told them to call their moms to come and pick them up. We were done… of course, they didn’t.. Hell, the mom’s wouldn’t have come anyway.. But we did cancel next weeks meeting. Michelle and I need a break. We’re tired of planning stuff that can’t be done because the girls won’t do their freaking work.

Chris and I have been fighting over the littlest things. The reason I say this is.. well.. I have to explain my absolute loss of umm reality? Reasoning?

I have one job I do faithfully for Chris’s parents. I watch Kitty when they go on their cruises. It’s MY job. Kitty is a major pain in the ass – you have to watch her like a child. She gets out of the yard, gets into the garbage, digs like crazy and loves to lie on the furniture. Plus, she barks so freaking loud. She drives me nuts but…it’s my job and I don’t complain. This year was going to be a little challenge because I have the day care now and the dogs aren’t allowed in the house. My dogs usually sit on the back patio most of the day or hang in the back yard. They don’t try to escape and I can trust they won’t dig to China. The plan was for Kitty to do the same – unless she tried to escape from the porch by ripping out my screen. Chris, thinking he was… HELPING.. told his father not to forget the cage. Kitty would be caged during my business hours and of course at night. UGH! He was trying to help but… in my crazy opinion didn’t. Not wanting Kitty to be caged an entire week, his parents made arrangements for Tammy to watch Kitty during their next cruise. Instead of feeling relieved… I just wanted to cry.. See? I’m crazy right? That was MY JOB.. not TAMMY’s… MINE… and Chris took it away from me. I told him I didn’t know if I wanted to hug him or smack him; which of course caused us to get into ANOTHER fight. I was joking right? Was I?? WHY? Because I’ve totally lost my mind. I understand but darn it… that was my job! The men in white coats really need to get here soon.. next we’ll be fighting over.. how I fold the towels.. Oh wait.. they haven’t been done in MONTHS!! UGH…

We’ve decided to take a long weekend over Easter to get away.  (If I can make it that long) Becca says she’s hiding my phone so I can’t take it with me. If anyone needs us, they can go through her.. I need to get away from Girl Scouts, Day Care and life… just for a few days… We have no money, may lose the house..but..it’s better than losing my mind..well, what’s left of it!