Oh my goodness! It’s the last day of school and we made it! It was touch and go there for a while, didn’t think we’d make it as a team but we did!
Becca had her graduation ceremony yesterday and it was pretty cool. Had a couple of issues, like me almost going postal but all and all it was nice. But I’m wondering… if they have a school full of scholars like they say they do, then WHY would they have the kids BLOCKING the crowd of excited parents when they got their medals? For some stupid reason the staff had the kids walk from the outside aisle to the middle for their awards (facing away from their parents) instead of walking from the middle of the aisle to the outside. It was very frustrating to me who picked her seat 1 1/2 hours before the darn ceremony so I’d get a good picture of Becca and in the end got nothing because not only was she facing away from me but the other kids standing in line blocked her AND the impatient rude parents who forgot there were other students and parents in the room blocked my view. I was so pissed! These parents just stood up, walked down the bleachers, got in line or around the line to and started taking pictures of their kids. It was chaos..Then…when it was Becca’s turn… I stayed in my seat like a good little girl.. I got a picture of some fat pregnant lady as she hobbled back up the steps, a picture of some old mans ass who thought he needed to run down to get his picture and the head of the big old black lady whose child was behind mine and she needed MY seat to get her picture. I’m already an emotional wreck, I’m already emotionally unstable with my upcoming surgery, the pain in my stomach and the stress of finances, unrest in the family and my other responsibilities…do these people really know how close they were to being thrown down the fucking steps??? Chris kept reminding me that 2014 was going to be even worse… I doubt I’ll make it to then.. UGH..
Tomorrow is my last “official” event for Girl Scouts until August 23rd. We’ve got an event tonight and then an all day event in the Sun tomorrow UGH… Just when all my peeling stopped!! But then I will be DONE!! It will be a great break for me to gather my thoughts, get healthy and repair the damage that too much work caused my household. I’m tired, I’m cranky, I’m hurting and I just have nothing left in me. I hope the next few weeks will help. I need a break before I break! I can’t wait for my surgery, the pain is becoming more and more unbearable. I’m almost to the point of calling and asking for something stronger than Advil because I’m eating that like candy lately and it’s not helping at all!!! GRRR..
My Lizzie is coming down next week and we’re really excited… Except I got a phone call from my dad last night asking if I was “conspiring” against him to get Liz to move in with me. HUH? Liz told him we decided it would be best for her to move in with me until she graduates. I will home school her and then she’ll go to Flagler for College. Uh, well, she texted me and asked if she could move in and I told her to talk to dad and she was more than welcome. She asked me to look into homeschooling and I said ok.. that was it.. It was TEXTING for goodness sake.. So, dad said he was all for her moving down here with the poor people.. He wasn’t giving her a dime, so she’d have to live the way we were and if she could handle it… fine.. She’s actually thinking about it. But I’m sure the next 4 weeks of living here, she’ll change her mind.She’s just a 16 year old upset with her boyfriend. UGH!
All in all.. I’m just glad we made it. After tomorrow we’ll be able to regroup and find our footing again. I just hope it’s not too late…
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