If it’s not one thing it’s a half dozen others… I thought that after June 12th, everything would calm down and maybe I could just take a breath and relax. NOT…
I haven’t done a “Karen’s update” in quite a while because she’s actually been behaving herself and doing quite well. Dumb of me to let my guard down. In the middle of one of our more vicious and most recent arguments Saturday, the phone rings and I answer it. She caught me off guard, I didn’t think before I spoke. The crying starts and she says, “I need a place to stay, can I come over?” My quick response – sure… Not thinking before I spoke. Apparently, my brother in law is unhappy, he’s been unhappy for months and he just doesn’t want her around anymore. He swears there is no one else – I’m shocked he wasn’t struck down by lightning on that lie..but he just doesn’t want her around anymore. And as always, her response was… I’ll be out as soon as I sucker someone into keeping me. I talk a little to her that night about how stupid she is for giving up so easy but, she just wants to be done with it and the best course is for her to quietly move out. Of course, she then gives me the swift kick in my back and says, “I know Liz is coming soon and I want to apologize if I interfere with her stay.” OH FUCK! She is so not going to ruin my time with Liz and where the hell am I going to put everyone if she stays for a while.? I don’t want her here, Chris and I are already tearing each others throats out on an hourly basis, what’s going to happen when she “moves” in. She’s NOT moving in.. I can’t handle another issue. I hang up with the understanding she’s coming over Monday to talk and stay for a few days. Fighting resumes… sigh….
I call my dad and tell him what’s up. He blasts me for being stupid and even THINKING about letting her move in. I’m NOT letting her move in..it just popped out… the agreement to let her spend the night (or two). She’s 38 years old and she needs to stop screwing everyone over and grow up. She needs to stay in that house until she finds better accommodations and screw him and his unhappiness. Yeah yeah, I know but she still gets me when the tears start to flow.
So she calls me back Sunday and asks if I’ve talked with Chris and if he was okay with her moving in. MOVING IN??? Uh, you can’t move in…you can stay for a few days but you can’t move in.. Chris and I are on the brink of signing the papers ourselves, how the hell can we deal with that and deal with an emotional unstable user??? I hurt her feelings and I”m sorry, she just assumed I’d let her stay here and live off us. We’re barely keeping the house as it is how can we afford another person??? She started crying, saying she just wanted to leave, let it all go and just start over. I asked if she’ talked to her in-laws and let them know what was going on… No, she doesn’t want anyone to know. She’s worried she’ll lose her job etc. BULL SHIT.. I yelled at her,told her she was stupid and that she needed to scream to the world what an asshole he was and how he’s screwed her over for the 100th time. Nope, she’s playing martyr again – she’ll leave quietly, not take anything, put her dog up for adoption and make as little waves as possible. FUCKING IDIOT! I’d rip his balls off and feed them to the cats! But.. why should I be upset?? When money gets tight, he’ll call her back and she’ll go running. I don’t think she’ll be coming over today. I was pretty mean, even though I didn’t mean it. But darn it.. I’ve got my own problems right now, I can’t handle another persons right now. I need a break and I’m tired of being the one that puts my feelings and issues on hold to solve some other persons issues. And NO ONE is going to ruin my time with Liz. I’ve been looking forward to it for way too long to have someone interfere!!!
Chris says I’m the one that needs medications… maybe he’s right.. I guess I’ll discuss that with my doctor at the next appointment.
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