How do I react? What should I feel? The thoughts race through my head and I just don’t know what to say.

A few weeks ago my sister informed me she was moving to Atlanta. Believe me, I was quite shocked to hear her say this.

She’s been having a blast the past few months finding her old gang on Facebook and getting back in touch with all her old beau’s. We even had one of them spend Christmas day with us. She and Jeff have been separated (though still living together) for over a year. He has his girl friends, she has her guys. A few months ago, she told me she found her favorite old boyfriend on FB, he lives in Atlanta, doing well for himself and he comes to Jax every once in a while to visit his family. He actually came down just to visit with Karen last month. Didn’t think much of it-this has been the same way she’s met up with each of the old guys. SO, I’m a little shocked when she calls me up and tells me she gave a 60 day notice to her work – she was moving to Atlanta the beginning of September. WOW, shocking but.. eh, it’s a Karen thing – she won’t go through with it. Imagine my surprise when she called me Friday and informed me she was leaving this Monday.Not two weeks after she called and said she was giving 60 days! She was fed up with her job, Jeff wanted her out of the house and she was ready for a new adventure. Huh.. I guess she was serious.  She stopped by today to pick up her few things she’s left here and she’s packing up tomorrow for the drive.

How do I feel? Sad? Heartbroken? Relieved? I don’t know. I do know that I was shocked to see the huge tears running down my baby girls face when she heard me tell Chris that Karen was actually moving. Who’da thunk Becca would be so upset about it? Karen hasn’t “been there” for anyone in so long -I never realized that she actually HAS been there for Becca. Becca is so upset that her Aunt is leaving. THAT breaks my heart, knowing Becca is hurting but honestly.. I think it’s best, I think Karen is due for a new adventure (far far away from me) and I think Atlanta is a great place to start it.

My brother is beyond furious. I found that Karen’s new home is 33 miles from my brothers house – 53 minutes away. Oh giggle giggle, I wish I were near when they get their 1st view of each other again after 12 years. Yeah, that’s childish I know.. but HEY, what are sisters for right?

I guess-selfish as I am.. I’m just pissed that I was the one that swore I would be out of this state long before anyone else. I hate Florida, I have hated Florida since I found out I had to move here back in ’83…and look at me now..My entire family has left this god-awful state..including my black sheep sister…and I’m still freaking stuck here with no way of getting out of here.GOD I HATE THIS PLACE…I’m happy for my sister, I’m glad she’s able to step up and finally go her own away..(and feel sorry for my brother cause he’s now VERY CLOSE to her) I hope she enjoys her new adventure and hope it all works out..

So.. What do I do now? The drama continues..

We’re dealing with another year of schooling issues with Becca. We swore before Becca left middle school that if she didn’t get into Stanton, we’d pack up and leave and find Becca an awesome school up North. We stayed because she got into the 2nd best school. Now, transportation for Becca’s school has been canceled. Thanks to our wonderful Duval County School System, they’ve canceled Magnet school transportation. What do we do? Gut response – MOVE MOVE MOVE.. Common sense? We stay until Becca graduates..thus giving us the dilemma of HOW does Becca get to school? Chris could take her most mornings – as long as he doesn’t get called out. He could pick her up most afternoons (as long as he doesn’t get called out) but what happens if he gets called out to Valdosta or Savannah? We have just one car and her school is 40 freaking minutes away! The bus companies have come up with a plan to find “convenient” bus stops for those 5200 Magnet screwed kids – at a cost of $1100. Until recently they stated it was due in full before the school year started (we found this out July 1st!) Who has that kind of money? I just got out of foreclosure UGH! I’m working on getting an assistant to see if I can take and pick her up BUT.. I’d need to get a new car in addition to paying an assistant. It’s all screwed up, it all sucks, I love to complain and I’m just so freaking tired of drama  being thrown our way. Becca is in constant hysterics about having to leave her school, going to a sucky school, moving away. Why’d we move out to BFE? Come on 2014! I am so ready to………..

 

3 Responses to “Mixed Feelings”

  1. I recommend just feeling happy.

    Happy for her starting a new adventure, happy for the support you’ve given her over the years that finally bloomed into her taking a chance, happy that she’s on her own. Plus, you can’t really go wrong with happy, it’s better than sad and moody…

    As for the school, everything is on hold until this gets settled. We’ll do what we can, (I still say dual enrollment at FC is a viable option) but if everything fails, your big 40th birthday party may turn into a “goodbye” party!

  2. I saw the story on Ch 12 about the meetings on bussing options. I can’t believe they are actually suggesting Public transit as an option, in this day and age, although I used it regularly as a teen.

    I’m torn though, I just spend four days in DC – public transit there is simply amazing, it’s too bad we don’t have something like that here.

  3. OK so here is my .01 worth, it would be .02, but I had to put new tires on the truck today. :-)

    FOLLOW YOUR BLISS!!

    Sure it would be nice for Becca to stay in her school, but hey, kids transfer all the time and they live through it. And yes I surley do understand doing everything you possibly can to give your child a good life. BUT….if you are not the happiest you can be, well then, what kind of life are you really giving your child. And I am not talking just about the “Morgans”….it goes for everyone.

    Sure I would LOVE to move to AZ ( I know Tree we are on oppisit ends of the weather spectrum) LOL But, that deep yearning will not stop me from being happy here and now. Becca will survive the move just fine. Hey rent your house out instead of selling…LOTS of peoples looking for rentals cuz there credit is ruined from a forclousure, but they are still good people and are working. I know kinda babbling, but hey it’s what I do best.

    I would not be sad to see you move, I am not that selfish. I will dance with you in happiness at the parting party.

    ok I shant bore you with more mindless dribble…I love you ALL, and I just want nothing more than happiness in your life, and what ever it takes to get there.

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