I feel the crash coming. It’s not here yet but the storm clouds are forming. I am still happy but it’s like I have a bad trojan program running in the background of my brain. I know it is there, I know it is going to get me, I can’t find it and I can’t stop it. That feeling of a looming deadline that you know you won’t meet. I don’t know what is going on. Have I held off the storm for too long? Have I been running high for so long that now I need to counter with a severe low? I feel like I should be doing something. If I could build something, create something, DO something, I could stay out of the approaching rain. Something is about to hit me in the face and I don’t even know which direction it is coming from. This has been the loneliest drive yet.
Depression is something Hollywood thinks is a good idea I guess. I know Pixar does. WALL-E is the latest “G rated” Disney movie and it starts out with the hammer to the skull message that the human race destroyed the planet and had to move to space ships to escape our mess. It follows up that sweet little reminder with a depiction of the human race as lazy fat blobs who are slaves to the big corporation. Is this really a kid’s movie? Wow! I know that I normally agree with the ideas in this movie but I’m a jaded and mean-spirited asshole. This is a fucking Disney cartoon! Disney! Those are the people that are supposed to bring us fairy-tales and adventure. Noble heroes, loveable sidekicks, innocent princesses, sexy mermaids and defeated villains. They aren’t supposed to depress our kids, are they? So since Disney/Pixar has crossed over into my territory and painted a doom/gloom picture of our future, I now have to step over to the other side and be positive for once. Gods this is going to hurt. I HATE being happy and positive and all of that shit…
Yes, we are a stupid, short-sighted race of people and we are mortgaging our futures for the instant gratification of the present. We are in deep shit here people and we need to do something about it. Not now but yesterday. But we are also a resourceful group who can overcome and adapt to many situations. Yes we have become complacent, lazy and spoiled, but all that will change when it has to. It would be nice if it changed now, but that’s not human nature. Newton’s first law of motion and all of that. We’ll keep being comfortable as long as we can until that unbalanced force changes things. And then after things change, we’ll find ways to be comfortable in the new paradigm. We are wasteful, but when things become scarce, we’ll start hoarding again. We buy things we don’t need, but when the power goes out, those iPods will be the first thing we drop. We are fat and lazy but we aren’t stupid. Those of us who are stupid or unwilling to change will die off quickly (I wish they’d start NOW!). The human race will survive in one form or another. We’re not escaping into space and we’re not destroying the planet.
I have a whole big rant on that whole “save the planet” mentality but I’ll lave that for later. We are incapable of hurting this planet. And I seem to be incapable of stopping my thoughts. I keep writing on and on about this topic even though this is right where I want to stop the blog. It would seem that I have a lot to say about this. I will cut out the pages below and save them for later. Maybe I’ll put them up here another day. But for now I want to stay positive. We aren’t the blobs depicted in WALL-E. We never will be. Some of us aspire to be like that and some even achieve it. But only because times are good and the humans are thriving. When the storm clouds break, they’ll be gone and those of us left will be the ones that were able to put away our toys and think for ourselves.
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