The load just shifts, it never disappears. Be careful how much you load up because it will stay there until you realize that, no matter how you try, things never get better, they only shift. You’re out there thinking, “If only I can get…” or “If I can hang on until…”, “Things will get better”. You may get there, you may make it to your arbitrary date. But the load never goes away. It hangs on with a tenacity that can transcend death herself. If you take on too much, if you don’t stop to unpack your burdens, you’ll carry them all to the grave and the trip will seem all too short. There is no magic bullet, you have to stop and unload manually. You have to choose which parts of the load you want to go on carrying. Sometimes it goes so long between stops, the load can pile up higher than you can see. At times like that, you can either weed through it slowly or give up and burn them all. Good loads can get lost in the wake of an emotional meltdown like that.
Got in to Miami this afternoon. Welcome back to Hell. I’ve been playing the same song over and over in my head recently, I really wish there was such a place. “It’s a five o’clock world when the whistle blows; No one owns a piece of my time”. That place just doesn’t exist for me. On the road, out of town and alone. I’m living the life of a rock star but without ANY of the benefits. The first benefit missed is not being in a band, the lack of groupies runs a close second… I’m on the clock 24/7 out here. I’m not getting paid 24/7 but I can’t go home, I can’t exist. At home I’m nothing but a ghostly memory that shows up occasionally just to promote the rumor that I am still alive. How long before I’m not the “me” I remember?
I had a minor celebrity run-in this afternoon. As I checked in to the hotel I waited in line behind Spike Lee. He already had his key and was asking about some other people in the hotel. I thought it was kind of cool to see someone famous, even if I’m not really a fan. Eleven minutes later (I timed it!) I finally got to the counter and he was the ONLY person in front of me. He spent that time asking if some of the others in his party had shown up yet. He got upset when the clerk wouldn’t give him their room numbers. Eleven minutes I waited and he already had his room keys when I walked up! So I’m guessing all celebrities I will spot in Miami will run at about a 50% cool rate. Andy Garcia was cool, Spike Lee is a dick!
Other bad news, There should be only one! Part one; chock-full-of-Awesome! Part two; so bad it made me forget part one. And the remainder of the movies/television shows get only slightly better from there. Twenty years later; they are doing a remake. If you don’t know the catchphrase, you won’t care. They could cast Damon Wayans as Connor MacLeod and you wouldn’t care. Everyone else is afraid. Very afraid.
But news on the movie front is not all bad. If you stuck around for the credits in “Iron Man” you are already hip to this, straight from the mouth of Nick Fury himself. The success of “Iron Man” and the new “Hulk” is paving the way for “Thor” and “Captain America” to be followed up shortly by “The Avengers”. This could be good. Especially that I just heard that much of the fight/action in Thor will take place in Asgard. Oh yeah, this could be good.
So we started with shitty news, melted into good news and now we’ll finish on ehhh… If you haven’t seen Indiana Jones 4 yet, don’t highlight the next line. I love both of the Indy films (Temple of Doom has been erased from my mind) and part 4 is good even though there is an element of ugh in it. I’ll do it semi-spoiler free with a single word. HIGHLIGHT HERE> —– ALIENS —– Even after you read that single word, you’ll immediately think the movie is a stinker. Not really, it’s still a good Indy movie. They don’t ruin it like I imagine they could have. If you like the franchise, it holds up just fine. If you’re looking for a reason to hate it, there’s your key.
So I’m going away now. I’ve got a headache that just won’t stop. For those of you who use FireFox, I heard they are starting to share your info. So aside from being a memory hog, now it can custom-spam you. Old news to those of you in the know, something you should look into if not. I never know when to change or adapt to new software. I haven’t upgraded to iTunes 7.6.2 yet because I hate taking the upgrade as soon as it is offered. I never have good luck with software. It seems that every time I start using software it dies or becomes useless. “Audacity” don’t fail me now…
Music in my head, depression on my brain. Don’t read too deeply into either one…
“Love lies and doesn’t pay the rent, neither does hate but it never makes you think it will.”
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